Wow I have been on a streak!! Third post, go me! I don't know why lately I've been really trying to feel god. But then I actually do. I believe its because of my unhappiness and my hopelessness. When I went through that period of doubting Him, of doubting His actual existence, there was one thing that made me hold on. I can't wrap my head around the fact that we could just be here. Be here on earth with no purpose. Why go through all of this pain and heartache if there isn't a point? If there isn't some greater reason for our suffering and learning? And, if there really isn't a point, why allow ourselves to endure this? I probably would have ended it if I believed that. The thought of no purpose really is depressing, and that is what made me go back and give Him one more try.
I was watching this little devotional/sermon on YouTube (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RwX_EpNR4CA), and it discusses Jesus and Barabbas. So just to refresh your memory, when Jesus was about to be put on the cross, Pilate gave the people a chance to save one of the prisoners. Jesus had only ever healed and done good, whereas Barabbas was a rebel and a thief. The people chose Barabbas, and he went away laughing that he got away. Now this story makes me think of two things.
First of all, why did the people choose Barabbas? This is yet another huge piece of evidence that shows peoples tendencies to choose what is worst for them. Now I don't know if its because we believe that we deserve the worst, or that we have such a stigma on religion, that we "crucify" all those good things and save the bad things. Satan is whispering into our ears, pouring evil and lies into our minds, and it upsets me so much to think of the influence that he has. To get back on track, we must ask for forgiveness, which is the hardest part of bouncing back.
This brings me to the second thing I thought about, the point of the video. Jesus didn't get upset that the people chose Barabbas, not to mention the fact that he was SO unfairly treated and that he had never done an unclean or evil thing in his life. No, he allowed Barabbas to go free because he loves us. He loves us through all of our flaws. Think of all the evil people of the world, rapists, terrorists, dictators, liars, etc. He loves them. Think of all the things you've done. Remember that mistake you've made over and over? He forgives that. He loves you, and your flaws. He knows you aren't perfect, in fact, that is purposefully done. You are imperfectly made. Beautiful flaws make it possible for you to draw nearer to him. They make the purpose of this life! To become perfect in him! How powerful is that????
Anyways, I would love to write more, but its really late. Or early haha. Remember that he loves you, that it's alright to make mistakes as long as you find rest and forgiveness in him.
Amirah
I was watching this little devotional/sermon on YouTube (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RwX_EpNR4CA), and it discusses Jesus and Barabbas. So just to refresh your memory, when Jesus was about to be put on the cross, Pilate gave the people a chance to save one of the prisoners. Jesus had only ever healed and done good, whereas Barabbas was a rebel and a thief. The people chose Barabbas, and he went away laughing that he got away. Now this story makes me think of two things.
First of all, why did the people choose Barabbas? This is yet another huge piece of evidence that shows peoples tendencies to choose what is worst for them. Now I don't know if its because we believe that we deserve the worst, or that we have such a stigma on religion, that we "crucify" all those good things and save the bad things. Satan is whispering into our ears, pouring evil and lies into our minds, and it upsets me so much to think of the influence that he has. To get back on track, we must ask for forgiveness, which is the hardest part of bouncing back.
This brings me to the second thing I thought about, the point of the video. Jesus didn't get upset that the people chose Barabbas, not to mention the fact that he was SO unfairly treated and that he had never done an unclean or evil thing in his life. No, he allowed Barabbas to go free because he loves us. He loves us through all of our flaws. Think of all the evil people of the world, rapists, terrorists, dictators, liars, etc. He loves them. Think of all the things you've done. Remember that mistake you've made over and over? He forgives that. He loves you, and your flaws. He knows you aren't perfect, in fact, that is purposefully done. You are imperfectly made. Beautiful flaws make it possible for you to draw nearer to him. They make the purpose of this life! To become perfect in him! How powerful is that????
Anyways, I would love to write more, but its really late. Or early haha. Remember that he loves you, that it's alright to make mistakes as long as you find rest and forgiveness in him.
Amirah
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